My Journey of Life
Following A New Journey
I am not sure what this new journey holds for me since I live a very private life, but I’m feeling God is wanting me to open up and to share the journey I have been on during the past few years. This will be difficult to do since this journey has been hard and has been wrought with many tears, great difficulty, and many fears. However, I have said for many years, if my story will help someone else then I will go through all of this with God by my side providing me with strength and courage.
“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.” Psalm 91:14-15 NIV
I’m not sure if any one else ever struggles with being excited with an approaching new year, but I wasn’t. I found myself deeply discouraged as the days got closer. I couldn’t believe another difficult year had gone, but found myself dreading a new year of the same struggles quickly approaching.
As I was doing dishes the other day I came to the realization I wanted to live my life “intentionally” this coming year. No, this is not a resolution, it is a challenge I have for myself. Living life intentionally is against what I have found myself doing for the past several years. Living life intentionally means I will be taking control over my life. This is an action where I will be able to live my life with a sense of freedom. The freedom I lost in 2012 when my life as I knew it forever changed.
I have spent the past several years living trapped in a life that has been out of my control. I didn’t have control over anything any more. I have a full disclosure that my hard journey is not complete. I originally thought when I completed this hardship I would write about it then, but after all these years I am still walking down this difficult road. I have to learn how to live life around this difficulty.
As time goes on I will reveal some of these hardships and how I lost myself through the process of coping with them. It is my desire as I write about my journey that healing will occur. I’m trusting God has a reason for this timing as His timing is always perfect.
My hope is God will show me as I write how He has used the trial to better myself or to see how He used it to help others through their own walk.
“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.” Isaiah 26:3 NIV
Please be patient with me as this will be difficult, but with every word written it will be my prayer that God will richly bless each and every person He intends my words for. It is my prayer God will use my difficulties as a healing for where you are or where you have been. As I write my way through processing these hardships I will be praying over every word God wishes me to write about with the hopes they will touch your life and provide you with encouragement.