Courage and Bravery Sustains the Weakest Days
So here we sit at the allergy office which we have become familiar with. Another week, another set of shots. When we walk away, Kiddo will have 3 more shots in her arms for another week.
She displays such bravery from day-to-day. When she wakes up in the morning there is no rhyme to reason to what is ahead of her. Is today another doctor appointment day? Is it a day of shots? If it is, is it an easy day like today where it is only 3 or is it a 40 injection day? Thankfully they are only once every four months, but are difficult at best to go through.
The past round of 40 shots she experienced 47 shots in a 2 day period. Only a brave person with an abundant amount of courage could ever go through all of that in a 2 day window.
Kiddo’s journey to living a life of chronic pain began 2 1/2 years ago. She was diagnosed with chronic acute sinus infections which she suffered with for over 2 years before her 3rd and last ENT doctor suggested the sinus dilation surgery. Thank God we finally found someone who took this issue seriously and resolved it. Now this journey is behind her (we are hoping) and the pain of the constant sinus infection is done, thankfully.
Unfortunately, I wish I could say that was the only chronic illness she suffers with, but it isn’t. She also suffers from Chronic migraines as well.
This has been a horrible journey to watch her navigate but she continues to display courage and bravery on a daily basis.
There is no rhyme to reason to when the pain will kick in. How long with the pain be present for, or how severe the pain will be.
She has struggled with this for 2 1/2 years as well. We don’t know where they began or what caused them and because of their frequency and severity we have been struggling with identifying what her triggers could possibly be. There are no answers yet.
This is what get’s frustrating and discouraging to watch her go through. However, no matter how frustrated or discouraged she gets, she still handles all of this pain with such courage. I can see the emotional toll it takes on her, but she is able to put on a brave face with others like this is “normal” to her.
I know a lot of people struggle with many illnesses, but this by far has been difficult for me as her mom to watch. There are so many days I feel helpless to help feel better or take the pain away because her various conditions are so complicated to navigate around.
She has had several doctors admit defeat which left us seeking a new doctor and praying we would find a new one who would be able to solve these issues and find the root cause to them, but the best we have come up with are a couple who may not know the answers but are not willing to give up on her. They have agreed to keep fighting and seeking out answers. For this we are extremely thankful! They are our lifesavers and friends now.
It is my constant prayer that God will open up doors to a discovery of what is going on and how everything that is wrong ties itself together thus allowing for a treatment plan that would work.
Any and all prayers for her would also be welcomed.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.””
Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV
* I actually started this post yesterday, but Kiddo became sick with a virus last night and has been sick all night. I sat down this morning to finish it while she was resting.