December 29, 2017
As I close out the day I am praying this will encourage someone else who may be struggling like us.
Tonight is the coldest nights of the season for where we live and our furnace broke. I tried calling the repair man but they are so busy, the soonest they can get us in is tomorrow late morning to afternoon. That seems so far away when I think of how cold our house will get. I am just praying our pipes don’t freeze because we don’t need plumbing problems too.
First thing in the morning I have an appointment to get my car inspected and I am praying and trusting God will protect us from any car repairs right now. We can’t have anything go wrong with that too. Then there is my husband’s truck who also needs an inspection and it won’t pass because he needs a couple of things done to it. We don’t have the money for all of this.
Where does all the money come from as we are looking at these big expenses? It is so scary, but yet it shouldn’t be. We are to have complete trust in God because He knows everything at all times. Nothing is a surprise to Him despite it being one to us. When I was at the hardware store tonight I just felt God telling me to be calm and trust Him. The hard part was I asked God to protect us for tomorrow’s vehicle inspection. I had no idea within a few hours that I would be adding my house to the concerned list for the night.
The emotional pain and pressure is great. Tonight my heart is so heavy. We can not catch a break from struggling. Today all I could think of was wanting to start a new life journey to form a better, more secure, and happier life, however I have learned from the past, often times life gets harder in the form of challenges to test our skills in how to handle adversity.
This is not what I want to happen because all I have lived since 2012 has been adversity. This is why I am exhausted, frustrated, and weary. I cringe at the prospect of any more hardships coming our way. Then there is this tonight.
Trusting God, trusting God, trusting God, He has a plan even though we do not.
I wish I had the words of encouragement to speak to those of you who are struggling with similar circumstances.
I’m at a loss to come up with the words when my heart is empty tonight. The only thing I know and believe works all the time is prayer. My prayer tonight is for us both and that God will meet all our needs. I know He will protect us both from the scariness of what lies ahead.
Hugs my fellow struggling friend! We will get through this trying time! Hang in there!