How quickly the days get ahead of us. How quickly we fall back into unhealthy routines?
How quickly we forget we were trying to change something in our life, but the “old” crept back in and life fell back into the “normal”, but wait, we were changing that “normal”.
This is what happens to me. Life is good when I stay on top of the new, but let life get busy and doctor appointments take back over our days and weeks and I quickly fall back into the old life, the life I am trying to change. The life that is comfortable because it is what I know, but the life that is unhealthy for me to continue to live.
I am trying so hard to live a life that is intentional and one that includes “me”, but I continually find it is hard to live.
I have spent my entire life thinking of others and how what I do affects them, that I left me behind. I struggle with believing what is right for me is important. I grew up believing that putting myself ahead of others was selfish.
Now all these years later, I have learned there has to be a balance to the philosophy of putting others first and it not be selfish to think of myself too, but what does this balance look like now in my life?
How do I know what is selfish and what is healthy?
Is this something you battle too?
My friend, I am here to tell you I do not have the answer for either one of us, but I can tell you the journey I am trying to seek and keep failing at miserably is this…
I am trying to seek a journey to live my brave.
I am trying to live a journey where fear does not run my life and my efforts.
I am trying to figure “me” into the equation of what I am doing every day and where do I fit into it.
I am trying to make decisions that not only make others happy, but makes me happy as well.
I am trying to consider my health and well being into decisions I am making.
I am trying to live an “honest” life for me.
I am trying to remember I too am important in the decisions I make.
Does any of this sound like you? If it does, know you are not alone and know that no matter how many times we may fall, that our destination in the end will be beautiful and worth fighting for.
As I continue this journey the word God brings to me is perseverance. I included the definition of it because it is powerful to what God trying to remind me of.
noun / persistence in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success. – New Oxford Dictionary
God also reminds us through His own words that perseverance is an important trait because no matter how many times we may fall, the fact we get back up and try and try again, will enable us to reach our goal. His objective for us to allow us to mature and to finish our journey and in the end lack for nothing.
“Let perseverance finish its work so that you may mature and complete, not lacking anything.” – James 1:4 NIV
How ironic as I write this, that as parents do we not want the same for our own children and families? We watch them struggle in areas we can not do anything about, but we watch and pray that they stand back up, dust themselves off and try again.
My friend, God wants the same for us. He is watching us set our goals for our own personal lives. He watches us do really well for a while and over time we slip back into our old ways, but He doesn’t give up on us. He watches us and prays over us and allows us to fall, but encourages us to stand back up, dust ourselves off, and try again.
So today my friend, is the day that I stand back up, dust myself off and try again. Have you fallen and need to stand back up and dust yourself off too?
Well, today is the day that we stand together and hand in hand we take our steps together to march forward toward our destinations.
We do not have to do it alone. Together we can stand firm and hold each other up while encouraging each other that we are worth all the efforts we put forth and even the falls we may make. We can even pledge to hold our hands out and pick each other back up.
My Friend, we are worth the effort.